move out and in day

Today was a more productive day than yesterday. Not hard to be considering the sickening amount of time I spent sitting on my couch watching tv yesterday. Anyway, today the couch was moved out, and I wrote some more of the script that a friend and I are writing together, which was good. And after going out for a bit I am now back at home chilling on my bed because I am couch-less and the floor is hard on the tailbone.

I think I want to write a bit more script. Maybe I'll watch a movie too. Tomorrow though is part 1 of move day. And I need to drop off some resumes tomorrow and get some bungee cord before that all begins, which means that sleeping in cannot happen tomorrow. It probably won't be able to happen until like Monday, but that's alright.

I have discovered that for part 2 of move day (which is Friday) there's a 90% chance of rain. Which is Kingston terms means it's going to pour - all day. I've decided it's going to be an adventure. The map looks like this:

House One - to SUV - drive slowly - to House Two - up two flights of stairs - TA DA!

All in the rain.

I'm kind of excited. It's going to be hilarious. We're all going to get mad and frustrated and then laugh and keep going.

Oh Move out and in day. Let the good times roll.

the view from my couch

I've neglected this blog for most of March and most of April. Why you ask dear cyberspace?

Probably because of the papers and the readings and the exams that were in progress took up too much time, and left my brain fried.

But now I'm sitting here on my couch that is being taken tomorrow (because someone bought it and I'll be sitting on the floor for the next 2 days), alone, because my housemates have left, and I now know that living by yourself is hard. I also know that I am the LAZIEST person alive today. All I've done is sit on my couch and watch tv. I'm almost done the first and only season of Higher Ground and I watched the newest episode of Greek. Pathetic I know. Though it is the first time that I've done this since like December. I suppose I'm over due.

I think another reason that I've enjoyed sitting on the couch all day (well except for the couple of hours when I was packing) is because it's raining today. And rain makes my knees ache. It's like a deep ache, that doesn't cease and everything is stiff and sore. I suppose this is what happens when you're missing cartilage in your knees and then proceed to dance for 8 years. I can even feel bones grinding back and forth sometimes when I move them. I don't talk about my knee pain though because people laugh at me when I do. I mean I'm 22, what do I know about knee pain right? But it's there. And it hurts. Every time the temperature drastically changes, or it rains or snows. (And of course I pick living in Kingston where it rains all the damn time lol) The funny thing is, for all that the rain pains me, I really like it. It makes me smile. (The rain not the pain).

I'm writing this post because well I need to talk someone and since it's near midnight, and talking to myself is slightly creepy, here I am chatting with cyperspace.

I really can't believe that I'm going to New Zealand in like 10 days. I mean I haven't even been in a 747 before. Plus, I have to move out, move in, catch a bus to Toronto, meet and greet the folks and the family since I've been MIA since February, and then head off to the airport. I can't really fathom it all, or make it real in my head. I mean I'm sitting on my couch right now, and in 10 days I will be near the edge of the bottom of the world.

Well anyways cyperspace I will blog when I'm there. I mean I bet you can't wait for my storytelling of swimming with dolphins, meeting Flight of the Concords, and Peter Jackson, and all the other crazy stuff that New Zealand has to offer.

Well...

I guess I'll keep you posted.

Packing

I'm starting to hate packing. It's endless. Just when you think you're almost done you realize, oh nope. There's more. How does one accumulate so much stuff anyways?

What is really irritating me about the whole packing episode I think is that it's such a long process. What I really want is to pack. Move. Be done. But no, that's not really happening either. 4 more days until I move. Until then it's all about the waiting.

Waiting sucks people. I am not a patient person.

I also have to clean. Clean and pack.

That's all I can really talk about too lately, which makes my life updates seriously lacking in the adventure department at the moment. I mean there's only so many times you can say you blared music and packed all day and make it sound interesting. I passed my quota a long time ago in this regard.

Today though I did spend some quality time with the sun. And with good people over dinner. There were a lot of laughs. I had a good time.

I think the rest of the plan for the day is to curl up on the couch with a tv show or something. Yes. Especially since my last housemate just left, and it is little ol' me, chilling in an echo-y house.

Curtain Call

This is it. The end.

Everyone is either gone or in the process of being gone. I am sitting here surveying the scene, remembering what was, contemplating what will be. And I've come to a very simply realization:

Things change.

If you don't accept that things change, if you fight the change, you're screwed. Because really? The change is happening whether or not you throw a hissy hit or a temper tantrum, whether you get depressed and cry or face it all with a cheery face.

This change is inevitable.

So here it is. The last bow. The curtain is falling. We are done. Things have ended.

The new show is about to begin.

Done

I just wrote my last exam of my undergrad career this morning. It was Russian history and it was 3 hours. I'm going to sound so arrogant but I totally conquered. I'm also totally tired. So tired that I'm writing this with my eyes half closed.

Currently I'm sitting in the living room and a friend of mine is over ironing some shirts and one of my and I are sitting on the couch. It's chill. oh she's going back to her room to studying some psych I think. Don't you love the play by play?

Anyway, I have to work for 8 hours today which will be fun I'm sure since it's Cogro but I'm not going to lie I really looking fwd to sleeping tonight - and sleeping for about 10 hours or so. Oh, that's going to be brilliant. I love sleep.

Once I have recuperated from the crazyness that was exams I am going to start looking for a job for the summer as well as write the script that a friend and I are currently working on. I think I'm also going to read - read books of my choosing and sit in the sunshine. But first sleep.

That is my life update for the moment - well part of it anyway. More things have occured but I'm much to lazy to send a complete update into cyberspace.

Until next time my dears.

Simply Sunshine

On Thursday I had 2 exams. On Saturday I had 1. That's 3 exams in 48 hours. My brain is now on vacation.

I'm currently watching Tomb Raider and writing this random post. I'm also enjoying the sunshine. It's so beautiful today.

I had forgotten how fantastic it is to just relax and not do anything. To have no worries or concerns for a weekend.

I think I'm going to go and have another cup of tea.

Unconstructive Blogger Update

I haven't written here lately. I find myself with nothing to say - which is strange since I talk a lot and always have something to say...

So much has happened lately too:

I got into Queens teacher's college. And Western. I accepted Queens though. I'm going to New Zealand in just over a month for almost a month. I need to find a place to live for the summer and next year - and a summer job that pays well. I need to do well on my exams. I'm working with a friend on writing a script this month. My housemate and I experimented with making jello shots last night. I haven't been eating well lately which is a problem for me since I'm so damn tiny. Our furnace turned on for some reason today and our apt was 30.6 degrees for the entire day. It also rained all day.

I find myself lately not caring about really anything. I feel like everyone is moving fwd and I'm standing still (I know what a bloody cliche - it's almost 2 am, bear with me here).

I don't know what I want. It's so frustrating to not know what you want! I'm rather irritated with myself.

And I'm tired of people analysizing me - I'm starting to feel like I'm in the zoo. I totally understand why all the animals just sit there and stare at all the people. If people kept demanding that I do cool tricks I would just sit in the sun all day too and say screw you with my attitude.

ok. This is coming out way bitchy-er then I was intending it.

I'm sitting in the living room with the window open and every once in a while some random drunk Queens students will walk by being hilariously loud and disturb my comfortable silence I have going on with the rain.

It's 2 am. I should go to bed. And yet. I don't want to.

See this is why I haven't posted. I really don't have anything constructive to say to cyberspace.

Thanks for listening to me bitch though.